I don’t recall exactly when I discovered there was such a thing as the furry fandom, but it was either in 1999 or 2001, when trawling around this wonderful thing I’d ventured into called the Internet, via a painfully slow dial-up connection. In searching for anthropomorphic stuff, I found artists’ websites dedicated to it, all linked by a WebRing (remember those?). At first I was jubilant – I’m not alone in loving walking, talking animals! Then I noticed that many of these sites had sections for much more ‘adult’ work, and the excitement waned. Thankfully, it was always ring-fenced, properly warned-about, and rarely that explicit, so I was able to come to terms with it as a part, albeit a fairly sizeable one, of Furry.
I, in time, made a very rudimentary site of my own, and even made a couple of connections, who soon became friends. One still is, the other…well, let’s just say things didn’t end well at all. I spent time browsing the VCL, a simple art site, again aware that ‘adult’ work was present, but able to ignore it. There also existed the ‘clean’ archive Yerf, which was very active. True, there were signs of where things would end up going, but nothing to make it seem inevitable. It’s worth noting that I had already begun exploring my particular area of nudism-heavy work in my writing, and that I hadn’t yet begun rendering; the tools weren’t available.
Come late 2005, something new, and big, emerged – a social, art-focused furry site called FurAffinity opened. Enticed by the possibilities I was among the first to join, though as a lurker, not having anything beyond writing to share, which wasn’t supported well at all (no change there). It wasn’t until July of 2007, and the release of Little_Dragon and CharlieFox’s Krystal model, that I could start to be a more active, contributing member. 3D work agreed with me, and I gathered a modest collection of followers in an atmosphere that felt largely open, friendly and warm; accepting, in a word.
Then I posted my first intimate work, a series of Krystal and Fox making love by firelight, which was very tame even then…and my popularity jumped quite dramatically. I was now fractionally less of a nobody, and that cheered me, as well as set me on a path of steadily more explicit work. At the same time, I was embarking on making my own textures, and characters, and little worlds…but the sexual work was what gained the interest, so I did more.
I got pretty close, I recall, to the point of no return, but a number of things stopped me before I could cross it. One of my watchers, a rare beacon of honesty then and now, pulled me up, asking what I was doing, telling me this wasn’t what he’d liked about my work. At the same time, the friend who things went sour with had gotten into more explicit drawing, and it was bringing out aspects of their personality I must have wilfully blocked out up ’til that point, distant, exploitative, cheap sides I really didn’t like. Cue epiphany.
It suddenly became plain to me that ‘adult’ work really wasn’t for me – I didn’t like what I was doing to characters I claimed to be a fan of and care about, I didn’t like the people the work was attracting – not interested in me, just in what they could get from me – and I really didn’t like where it might lead me, as so vividly demonstrated by my ex-friend. Thus, I stopped. I explained in a journal that I was doing so, and why, and my follower count dropped by nearly half.
That was when it dawned on me what the Furry Fandom had become in the mere few years I’d been on its fringes – ‘adult’ work had gone from just being a part of things, albeit a fairly large one, to the dominant aspect. That was where the popularity and the money lay, so that’s where people increasingly turned, and it had gotten a whole lot more graphic since my initial, tentative dial-up forays. I will admit, I got rather vocal and dramatic about it for a while, and on occasion still do, my ex-friend taking a lot of the brunt of it after a failed attempt to reconnect, and a discovery that he’d gotten even worse (I dread to think where he is now, if he hasn’t simply dropped Furry entirely, as he’s dropped many other things he has no further need of before). I saw so much potential in anthropomorphism, and it sickened me most people just treated it as a means to an end.
Since then, it’s gotten steadily worse and worse. Yerf died, since the demand for ‘clean’ art was dwindling, as well as it being out-of-date as a site in the face of FA, and DevArt, and more. Conversely, ‘adult’ furry sites like Sexyfur and Jabarchives appeared and are still thriving. Come the present day, and the fandom is positively polarised, the 33% of ‘clean’ artists on one side, the 60% of porn and/or fetish artists on the other, with only a scattered handful in between, lost in no-fur’s land.
FurAffinity actually demonstrates this nicely – last time I was able to check the numbers, there were around 62,000 Clean submissions, 24,000 Mature, and 62,000 Adult. In other words, just shy of 42% of the art on FA is adult, which is hefty enough. Factor in that being a few years ago, as well as the huge amount of fetish and sexualised work under the Mature label, and the real figure is likely north of 60%. I don’t doubt these figures, as I’ve watched the shift happen – in 2007, if I searched clean and mature submissions for ‘nude’ on FA, I’d be presented with ample tasteful, pinup pieces; search nude now, in 2015, under the same conditions, and they’re rare as skylarks, dotted sparsely in a sea of exaggerated proportions and objectifying poses.
It’s not like FA’s alone in this, either. SoFurry’s even worse, largely due to being grown, badly, from a porn site (it may have the best story support by a mile, but trying to find writing not peppered with badly-written sex is almost impossible) and embedding the polarised clean-adult divide into its very setup. InkBunny suffers from being the home of all the cub-porn artists after FA banned them, thus has a stigma that keeps many away. Weasyl is the only one I don’t really know about, if only because it’s a directionless waste whose staff seem far more interested in covering their collective backsides than actually making a useable, sensible site – witness their four content ratings actually being more like two (1.2…….3.4 instead of 1..2..3..4) so keen are they on keeping the harmless stuff and anything even remotely ‘adult’ as far apart as possible.
True, some blame has to be laid at the door of the country furry is mainly based in, the USA, a land of knee-jerk reactions, binary thinking, and polarised factions, but when only six or seven of the fifty most popular furs (see Popufur.com for the lists) aren’t porn factories, and many – like Zaush, Fisk and Wolfy-Nail – have unpleasant, disturbing reputations it’s hard not to think there’s something seriously awry in the fandom. The way so many people insist otherwise, often with the aid of industrial-strength blinkers and shallow euphemisms – sex-positive seems to be the current favourite – really doesn’t help, either.
To further clarify the attitudes, you’ll sometimes hear an artist complaining about over-zealous clean-freaks badgering or even verbally abusing them because they do porn, which is ruining the fandom. While it’s certainly true this happens, and these people are ironically doing just as much to damage furry as those who take the cheap, easy porn option, through encouraging that damaging divide, these things work both ways. If you want to make money out of your furry art, you have in essence two choices – be so extraordinarily good you stand out, ala Kacey Miyagami, or draw porn. Most people choose the porn option, and you can, to a degree, understand that. The thing is, money’s not the only catalyst; there’s pressure from porn-hungry furries, too.
I’ve seen this in action, seen artists being cajoled, and manipulated, and even bullied, into doing ever more explicit work. There are people, and more than a few, who will genuinely dismiss and slander you as not a furry if you don’t draw porn. The most egregious example I can think of happened on SoFurry – an artist I followed, with a lovely style and an interesting comic, posted a journal noting they were thinking of doing adult work. Of all the people who responded, I was the only one who noted the potential pitfalls, and expressed concern it wasn’t a suitable avenue for them, and I got pounded on for it. Everyone else, even one of SoFurry’s own staff, was eager for them to take the plunge and railed at anyone even hinting otherwise, yet I was the closed-minded, selfish one showing no respect for the artist. Hypocrisy is, sadly, pretty rampant in furry.
Now, to be fair, there are things that likely colour my view to some degree – I can very easily separate sex and nudity, seeing the latter as normal, inoffensive and enjoyable on an aesthetic level (the human form is pleasing in many more ways than the sexual); I, as will be detailed in another piece, see so much potential and freedom in anthropomorphism, and hate how cheaply so many others treat it; I tend to be oversensitive, and get too easily attached to people and characters, to the degree I refuse to follow an artist that does even a little porn, on the off-chance that character I like gets put in a virginity auction (yes, that’s a real furry thing, and popular, too).
I must also note the fandom has given me a handful of wonderful friends, people who encourage, reassure, care, provoke in the best possible way, challenge and help me, so it hasn’t entirely lost what made it great when I first found it, but they’re rare diamonds in an ocean of rough.
I don’t like porn, but rather than rail at every artist that does it, or post bitter sarcasm on a cynical, two-faced forum (looking at you, Vivisector) I try to avoid it. That, no matter how hard I try, I can’t, is testament to how overbearing a presence it is in the fandom. That people can complain about the adult ads IMVU put on FurAffinity, yet ignore the fandom-sourced ones for adult comics, websites, and even lubes, that are so abundant, speaks to how inured the furry populace has largely become, as long as it has fur and a tail.
At heart, my concern is that furry is, in the long run, killing itself with porn, with the ever more vicious divide it creates and perpetuates. Yes, it has a place, but not anywhere near as big a one. It needs to be scaled down, dramatically, if furry is to have a future beyond being a dirty joke. Moreover, room needs to be made for a proper, rich middle ground, for a truly open landscape, not just two entrenched encampments with a wasteland in-between.
Then again, how many other things can you say that about?